HI

Okay, so it has been QUITE a long time since I have written anything in here. I apologize for that.

Well, I leave for America on thursday! I have one full day left in the Netherlands. I do not know how these four months passed so quickly. It is crazy. And it does not feel real yet. I don't really feel like I am actually going home. But I have to say these four months abroad were exactly what I needed them to be, I think. I feel like I have grown quite a bit. And I feel like I am in love with art again. I think I have been out of love with art-making since starting at MICA. At least most of the time I have been out of love with art-making. I can't quite put my finger on why being here has renewed that love in me. Especially since AKI isn't quite the most conducive environment to find inspiration. At least for me it wasn't. But I guess in the end it was, but I feel renewed. I am really, really scared of coming home, though. I am afraid I will fall back into the routine that I came to follow while being at MICA. I am hoping that will not happen. I am also scared to come home and face the fact that things have evolved and changed during the four months I have been gone. To me, I would like to think everything would be on hold while I am gone. But that's not true. And it will be weird to realize things have changed and I have changed simultaneously.

But I cannot wait. I cannot wait to be home and to be back in my own country! I also cannot wait to see all of you! Although I will not get to see Christiane and Elizabeth, but I'm sure that will happen before we know it. Time seems to go by so quickly. More quickly than I expect it to, anyways!

Love you all, and cannot wait to see you all again.