major? crisis?

by Elizabeth

I think maybe I want to be a photo major???
As in, I'm not sure what I've been thinking, or if this is going to work better than what I'm already doing, but I have a feeling that if I don't make this change bad things will happen.

but it's probably too late? I don't want to have to spend more money and stay an extra semester here. I like the physical process of sculpture, but it doesn't make me feel much more than that. I have little desire to create sculpture on my own. But I'll always want to do photo on my own.
I sat through an amazing lecture by John Patrick Dugdale, a photographer who is blind from complications due to HIV. The lecture ended and I wanted him to keep talking, and showing his work. I couldn't get enough of it... that's how it always is with photography for me. I think I'm an idiot for not having predicted this would happen. My dad said he's know it all along.
But I'm already taking Junior sculpture seminar and applying to study abroad as a sculpture major. Part of this started when I looked at the prospective schedule I made up for my Burren mobility contract, and I felt a pang when I saw only one photo class. I think if I go to Ireland all I'll want to do is photo. but maybe not, I have no real way of knowing.
for some reason this semester is not not not going very well so far. bad timing indeed, as a junior!